Wow, I never thought taking my upper level philosophy and english-poetry courses, and some Bio-Chem now too, would instead debilitate my creative juices!!
I owe an apology to my avid dA fans (a seemingly 8 in total!, hurah!), for I think i only got out about 6 or 8 poems online this whole semester. A lousy 6 or 8 at that, am I right?
After a year now of utterly critical response and theory, poetry for me has become a tireless, endless grudge through a lake of editing. I need my poetry to be more "right" than ever it seems, and I don't have the blind vigor I used to pulling me through to the end.
In one way, I can't thank my teachers and peers enough for the daily fora of poetics and critiques and study, but then again where did my voice go? I shut up, so I could listen to myself. And in myself, I tend not to shut up haha.
Maybe I've learnt to really appreciate a poet who knows his voice; maybe I realize the voice was something I've never had.
But I'm looking, still. I'm very much a poet, still. Even in the cold dark months of winter. Just a couple more cups of coffee I suppose, yes.
That's exactly what will pull me through, yes, I hope.
, Matthew K.